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Thank You :)

By tehconi | July 1, 2012

A fortune teller told me that, past a certain age, I would become more mature and settled down in thinking and emotions.  I would leave behind the tumultuous youth years and move on to a better stage in life.

When I heard that, I was thinking, don’t people mature as they grow older?  That’s such a no-brainer…

Recently, whilst doing some self-reflection, I realise there is truth in what he said.  Not just in a general way, but specifically to my life journey so far.

I feel clearer in knowing who I am, what I want, what I like.  With clarity comes confidence and self-assurance.

I no longer fret when I see people have something I don’t have.  I no longer envy people with seemingly colorful personalities and lifestyles.  I am comfortable with who I am.  I know what my goals are.

I never really had a “crazy” youth doing the things youths do.  Never really let my hair down.  Never let myself play.  I was the workaholic, academic studious type.

As I grow older, I seem to ditch the “me” in my younger days, for a more relaxed and less intellectual person.  More hands-on, more of a go-getter.  I still feel guilty when I relax, though 🙂  It is rather difficult to tone down the workaholic nature in me.  I have to learn to play, can you believe this?!

God has led me on a strange journey.  Critical turning moments of my life were often catalysed by a deep desire for change. Even though the turns led me to places I never thought I would go, I have been honest in answering the calls and giving my best.

It took lots of tears and toil to get to where I am.  I have never given myself credit or acknowledged myself duly for it.  This morning I had an epiphany that I should feel proud of myself 🙂 It is not an easy feat.  Many people would have given up and chosen the easy road. I am proud of myself.

It is a road less travelled.  I am grateful for it. 🙂  I am thankful for my job.  It has taught me a lot about myself.  I have grown by engaging in it.   Taken better control of my emotions. Declutter my mind.

Thank you, dear God.

It is a beautiful day 🙂

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